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Faust · Posted: Feb Wed 02, 2005 7:51 pm Post subject:

I went into a psychiatric hospital about a year ago. I was really crazy and hostile but I don't really remember what it was like at the time. I am currently diagnosed as schizoaffective. I've been through 3 antidepressants, 2 antipsychotics and 2 psychiatrists. the first AP (Zyprexa (olanzapine)) I tried made me put on a heap of weight which I am now trying to lose. I am currently not taking any ADs. the Abilify seems to help with my irritability/agitation. I am much easier to live with now. all the medication seems to have blunted my creativity though but that could just be my apathy and anhedonia at work.

Laughing

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rogthefrog · Posted: Feb Wed 02, 2005 7:54 pm Post subject:

I didn't write a single note worth a goddamn while I was on ADs. By contrast, I've started 2 new pieces in the past 5 months (since I've been off the meds) and I'm much more inspired to play moozik. So there ya go. This isn't all about anhedonia, because my mood was pretty much the same in the last 8 months of being on ADs as it has been since I quit, and I didn't write anything then.
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Ecce Panis · Posted: Feb Wed 02, 2005 8:00 pm Post subject:

i've been feeling sort of down lately but i think that's because the realization that i'm a useless loser and that the past four and a half years of my life were totally wasted has finally settled in, and less to with a chemical imbalance. but who knows Laughing

Jebediah · Bunny punk Joined: 27 Feb 2004 Posts: 34 Location: NorCal

Tee hee hee. I've been "off" at least since I got into school. Various fun times with being antisocial, OCD, depression. Lovely thing depression and me is I get many other issues with it; worse OCD, homicidal, suicidal, genocidal, anythingelse-idal. After a few drunken months and stopping I kind of snapped and went on antidepressants which certainly helped. Now I'm still pretty nutty but most my major mental issues are at least somewhat non-obvious.
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((o)) · Posted: Feb Wed 02, 2005 8:20 pm Post subject:

I'm pretty sure I have social anxiety disorder, at times I think might be manic depressive, but I don't know since I've never been to a psychiarist or psychologist, and never on medication. I'm also mildly obsessive complusive but then I think everyone is to a degree, whatever that maybe. I don't know if it'd be useful to seek "professional" help, mostly because I would rather not take pills.
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magical retard · Posted: Feb Wed 02, 2005 8:41 pm Post subject:

Mikhail Capone · Posted: Feb Wed 02, 2005 10:42 pm Post subject:

Ded Mitya · Posted: Feb Thu 03, 2005 12:24 am Post subject:

I have none, although I really tried at some point.

D.
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mparent · Posted: Feb Thu 03, 2005 1:10 am Post subject:

Bipolar. But it's going much better now than it was back in the day, mostly.

meshrinoctus · Posted: Feb Thu 03, 2005 9:08 am Post subject:

I've been with enough crazy girls to the point where I probably have inherited crazy genes through salivival intake (ew!).

I have ADD and a Non-verbal Learning Disabiliity. The latter indicates that my processing IQ is way lower than my verbal IQ, so I learn really slowly, but I can verbalize and think pretty complexly (albeit slowly, sometimes). It's like a 40 freakin' point difference.
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Spooky Apparition · Posted: Feb Thu 03, 2005 9:28 am Post subject:

No disorders or medications for me. Score!

magical retard · Posted: Feb Thu 03, 2005 9:55 am Post subject:

rogthefrog · Posted: Feb Thu 03, 2005 10:08 am Post subject:

[quote="Mikhail Capone"]

InertialCreep · Posted: Feb Thu 03, 2005 10:09 am Post subject:

I masturbate too much!!!
Oh wait, this should probably go under the Sins heading.

I'm also a genius, which makes me quite arrogant to mere mortals.
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Evermind · Posted: Feb Thu 03, 2005 10:10 am Post subject:

The way "psychology" diagnoses afflictions, I think 90% of humanity would probably have some sort of psychological "disease". Maybe it's just a tendency in everyone and one need not take a dozen pills to "cure" it - perhaps simply start acting and living differently!

magical retard · Posted: Feb Thu 03, 2005 10:19 am Post subject:

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BKM · Posted: Feb Thu 03, 2005 10:24 am Post subject:

I am extremely shy and uncomfortable in social situations like parties. Pathologically repressed. I am also very addictive (spending habits/materialism, sweets/fattening food). Thank God I never got into drugs or serious alcohol.
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InertialCreep · Posted: Feb Thu 03, 2005 10:50 am Post subject:

fantm1012 · Bunny punk Joined: 15 Jul 2003 Posts: 67

I've always had social anxiety and have been fighting depression for some time now. It was at its most extreme over the holidays when it just seemed like the whole world closed in on me. I tried to hang myself in my room, but the cord I used wasn't strong enough to support my weight and snapped. I remember sitting there for hours just staring at it. I couldn't really believe what had happened. I've since pulled myself together somewhat. I know I should probably be on medication, but I have a horid phobia of doctors, hospitals, etc. I was in and out of hospitals my whole life for physical conditions and it eventually got to the point where I couldn't take it anymore. I can no longer come anywhere near a hospital without shaking uncontrolably. So I basically just try to convince myself to face my life one day at a time. That life will eventually work out the way its supposed to. So far i've done a fairly good job of convincing myself this.
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